For we must all learn to howl.

OMG, I 'fessed to my mom about 'Edward'! I mean, I'd been meaning to for quite some time now, so I guess it didn't come as much of a surprise. The confession wasn't as difficult as I'd imagined it to be. Of course, it wasn't as though I was confessing to 'Edward' , because that would have been impossible. Having been rejected by previous crushes twice {I know it may not be much, but still}, it's gotten practically impossible for me to act natural around guys, and also to confess. Sigh, it's a fear I may never get over... When one of my friends asked me if there'd be any chance of me letting 'Edward' know how I feel after the 'O' levels, all I could tell her was, "I don't know." Man, I'm such a chicken :( Okay, that point aside, I told my mom about how I feel about 'Edward', and she totally shocked me by saying that she'd known about it all along, and that she approved of him {and my liking...

Well the prelims are finally over!!!!!!!! Magnifique ! Until I remember that we still have, what, 39 days till the 'O's? Well, that's a cheerful thought. Haha, okay I told my friend I'd try to be more cheerful while blogging, cos she read my blog and got kind of depressed. I had no idea my blog was capable of giving off such strong vibes.... Lol! :) though she did say that my poems rocked, which sent me all the way up to heaven XD Seriously, my ameteurish, random, depressing poems rocked?? I love you, girl!! XD Oh oh, and this guy friend of mine came to school even though he didn't have an exam today. Seriously, he came for no reason other than 'for fun'....... Man, and I thought I was nuts. Okay, this is like one of my worst posts ever, I don't really think I'll try the random, rambling post style anymore XP Ciao babes!

'EDWARD' CAME BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm perfectly serious, he came back with his other friends to look for their teachers and wish them a happy Teacher's Day. And he said hi to me!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay, I think I'm losing it. Okay, take a deep breath, and let's go back to the beginning of the day. Right, so I came to school in the morning, and brought the apples that I'd bought with my friend yesterday. The apples were to be given to some of our fave teachers, because, well, apples are traditionally given to teachers..... So we thought we'd try giving apples, for fun. You know, something new. Who would have thought that some guys from another sec4 class had also decided to do something similar? The only difference was that instead of buying apples, they bought a watermelon. Seriously, an honest-to-goodness, green-outside-red-inside watermelon. Man, they really are different. Okay, with every event that the school celebrates, there must be a concert. It's part...

Crimson tears drip down my wrists As I slump onto the floor The razor sits beside me, a friend I never wanted to make. Trembling, I pick it up and hold it close to my arm As its teeth bite in, I cannot help but moan In painful ecstasy Of this self-inflicted torture this punishment Neverending pain as our souls mingle Connected Bonded by the flow of blood The blood of Life of Death Like a scarlet thread It binds us together The living and the dead As the emotions that control us weave an inescapable net.

So two days ago, our English teacher wanted us to split into groups and come up with a speech to present to the class. Our group chose to do a valedictorian speech, and so we were all trying to come up with ideas that the top student of the year might include in the speech. And while brainstorming for ideas, I suddenly wondered if this was how 'Edward' might have felt when he wrote his farewell speech for when his batch stepped down from the Student Council. And when I went to the front of the classroom to present our speech {nobody else wanted to, so I volunteered. I love doing this, anyway!}, it felt so much like how I might have imagined 'Edward' to feel when he addressed the Student Council. Or maybe I'm just dreaming again. Sigh. I miss him so, so much.

Do you believe in love at first sight? Better still, do you believe in the concept of soulmates? I know these are very random questions, but hey, stick with me long enough and the random becomes the norm. XD Well, one of my besties asked me these questions a few days back, so it kind of got me wondering about it. In truth, I sort of believe in love at first sight, but to me this love is merely physical attraction, so I'd say it needs time for the spark to grow into something else. And, well, I really do believe in soulmates. Believe it or not, I really do. I believe in the whole 'two souls fated for each other' thing, and I don't really know why, so don't even bother asking. XD I asked another bestie the same questions, and got slightly different answers {duh.} which is expected, because we'd all be mindless drones if we all thought the same way :) Well.................. I do hope my soulmate's out there somewhere, or maybe he's already in front of me b...

Okay, I'm sorry that all I seem to do lately is post amateur poems that are dark , and emo , and depressing . Well, I have to say that since I can't always find stuff to blog about (my life isn't that interesting) this will have to do :) Don't hate me, okay? XD