Selfish

In the end, who is it I truly let down?
My friends, myself, you?
Why do I constantly feel like I'm running?
Running from these shadows that never leave my side?
Natalie Chew, you are one fucked-up mess.
It's bad enough that you're this way, but there's no need to drag others in.
So selfish.
You're so selfish.

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