For we must all learn to howl.

Hahas, so we got our papers back...... Well I'm not gonna list the results (no way, no how) because, well... Ah, just because. So I'll just write (type?) random stuff here :) We got our class photos today! I only ordered the informal picture, cos the formals will be in the school annual anyway so why do I need to see 2 identical photos?? Oh, yay I don't look too retarded in the informal photo, which is good, but in the formal photo, I reckon I looked awful . Ghastly. Dreadful, frightful, and whatever else is in the thesaurus. Hm, at least my striking green watch helped to divert attention from the monstrosity. Oh oh, and I cut my hair yesterday! :) The fringe is a bit too short for my liking, but hey, everyone else seems to like it. I was greeted with cries of "OMG Nat , you look so cute !!" One said I looked cute like a doll, and another said I looked cute like the 'chio' kind. Um. Well one reaction I've definitely noticed is that friends can...

I saw him today as I walked into school I gasped What was he doing? My intense gaze attracted his attention He turned those gorgeous orbs in my direction Brown stared into brown I froze, my heart beating fast. Suddenly, he smiled rose his hand, and waved. I sucked in a large amount of air into my lungs; I think my heart stopped I raised my hand in a tentative wave wanted to go over, talk to him. Just then, I saw a girl walking towards him. My thoughts screamed. She was gorgeous, perfect. Just then I realised he wasn't waving at me. It was meant for Her. My heart broke into a million pieces Unconsciously, my eyes prickled with tears My heart raced; andrenaline building up. I strode to their side and smacked her on her cheeks. She shrieked; I felt good at least till he slapped me. I stood still; shocked. He had never raised a hand against me before. But my taekwondo skills were faster; I instinctively reacted and broke his beautiful nose. ...

Disappointed in me You were Confused I was What did I do wrong again? Cannot I act? Cannot I be Myself? What was wrong with being Me? With talking the way I usually talk? Confused Confused My heart beats Confused Can'st thou accept me as I am? Silent Disapproving Your eyes watched my every move Every gesture Hearing all But naught registers Till I try to make you laugh Make you happy. You Snap. Not so silent now. Stung by your words I fruitlessly try to defend myself Ashamed Disappointed You never want to hear me say those words again in that accent. Why? Why? WHY? Accident! Purely accident; Had I known I would not have said that and unknowingly angered you. But too late now You disapprove of me. Frowning, scowling, erupting at your defenceless kin your daughter.

Yessss the exams are FINALLY OVER!!!! I don't believe it-I have survived another exam week, the feeling is so satisfying... XD So I'll give a short exam rundown here :) Social Studies- Average, what can I say right? -.- Emath 1- It was gooooood :) English 1 & 2- As usual, I'm worried that I might not perform up to standard... Mother Tongue 1 & 2- Paper 1 was pretty good, paper 2 was average :) Chemistry- The thing blew up in my face!!! T.T E.History- Average :( Amath- The first page was good, the next four pages were absolute hell. Biology- Not as difficult as I expected :) Emath 2- Waaay tougher than Emath 1 :( Geography- Would have gone pretty well if for those STUPID people outside our class had not made all that noise... I SWEAR I will kill them if I manage to get my hands on them. Okie, so that's the exam rundown! ^^ Hm, I didn't manage to see 'Edward' today or the day before, but at least I saw him last Friday and this Monday :) When I saw him ...

{This was written for 2/10/09, 9:37PM} I finally decided I couldn't take it anymore. I 'fessed up. Not to 'Edward' though, but to the friend who started the "OMG Nat is obsessed" thing. I told her the entire thing, how insulted I felt, how I had to act to make them believe that I was totally over him. I swear that I didn't say anything harsh to her, but she was so worried that she'd betrayed my trust and that I'd never trust her again because she had judged me without good reason. I still trust her, but I can't give her 100% anymore. Then again, I don't think I'll ever tell them how I really feel about 'Edward' anymore. I trust them, but I'm not keen on inviting any more 'obsessed' suspicions. I want to be able to show them how happy I am whenever I see him, but now I feel that it's way too risky to open my heart so much. Even though this situation has been (somewhat) resolved, it feels like that spark has died w...

{This was written for 1/10/09, 7:18PM} Today, I put my carefully-formulated plan into action. I acted as though I couldn't care less about him in front of them, even though I sneaked peeks at him when I was sure that they weren't looking. I acted as though I didn't give a damn that he was graduating tomorrow , when I actually felt so sad that it was beyond description. They all fell for it, hook, line and sinker. My acting was good. My heart and mind were in bad shape, though.

{This was written for 31/09/09, 4:13PM} So insult number 1, I've been told that I'm obsessed with my 'Edward'. Insult number 2, this statement came from those whom I consider as my close friends. To be dramatic (I am in the NASDC after all), I could say that this was a stab in the back - the ultimate act of betrayal. Till this day, I have no idea how this whole 'obsessed' topic came on. School had ended, we were walking out of the school gates and chatting about random stuff, when bam , the topic sneaks up on us. Anyway, I want to focus on the 'obsessed' topic. Not that I'm blaming anyone here, but humour me for a while. Imagine that you like this sec 4 guy who is supposed to be graduating in 2 days time. Obviously, you'd be pretty cut up about it. Not to mention that he has his 'O' levels in 27 days time and you have your finals, plus you're worried about your bad grade in math, and no amount of practice seems to be able to pull it ...