For we must all learn to howl.

It's funny, I've never really taken much notice of how I speak English. I mean, it just comes to me, and I've never had the need to really take note of how I sound. Or at least, not till my dad commented just now how much I sounded like 'the others'. I had been way confused, and asked what he meant. "You're speaking too much Singlish." As far as I could remember, I had only spoken Singlish once, and that was when "la" had slipped out. I found it quite unfair. I mean, my English isn't all too bad, and I hardly speak anything other than good, standard English. Ask my friends, for goodness sake! How many times have they said that I sound American? How many times have they said that I don't sound local? There was once, during NASDC practice, that I tried out for a role. I got the role, but our instructor told me that I'd have to work extra hard on my speech, because "I didn't sound local enough". When should I speak rea...

What is wrong with the words I say the things I do? I guess only God knows... For can there possibly be a reason to treat me the way you do? Please tell me, what should I do for you to love me? I know you do not; I can see it in your eyes. You do not want me. In your eyes I am but a child, incapable of anything and everything. "Not for children" are the three sacred words that come from you when I try to prove that I am mature that I'm worth loving Am I? Really? The doubt in me grows ever faster. "It's just tough love," the others say, trying to reassure my fears. "Wrong, it's just no love," I say, defiance sparking through my tears. Always angry, always hateful, that is what you are. Always fearful, always broken, this is what you've made me. One day when I am strong enough, I'll pack my things and go. I know you'll never miss me. Out of sight, out of mind, Forever. Hm, this is my first ...

It's weird, but I've been fantasising of myself with 'Edward' lately.... I swear, it's all clean, but the feeling is just kinda weird... And I tried writing one out, but it looked so out of place! O.o

So! The day that we have all been waiting for has finally arrived : THE END OF THE 'O' LEVELS!!!!!!!!!!!! It feels great! It feels fantastic! It feels... Pretty normal actually. :( Today was my last day (Bio MCQ), and when I asked around, it seemed as though everybody had already made plans to celebrate. "I'm meeting my friends to check this new cafe out." "I'm going to so-and-so's house to fangirl over SuJu." "I'm meeting my friend later so we can go running together." And me? "I'm going HOME, because I'm still under house arrest." Yes, I am under house arrest {so sad!} but it's because my mom's gone overseas and has expressly forbidden me to go out in her absence. Which makes it a lot more tempting to just sneak out... And while everyone was going off in groups to whoever knows where to celebrate, I got on the bus and headed home to emo. What made my currently wonderful day even better was when a gr...