For we must all learn to howl.

What do you do when you cannot love someone the way you wish you could? What do you do when you know you should do something, but you're not sure what? What do you do when you wish you could be anywhere but where you are right now? To fly elsewhere to seek out the one person you need to reach out to at this very moment? My story, my anti - I will never forget, but do not give me a reason to. Please don't do what you are promising to. Is there nothing I or anyone can do to convince you otherwise? Think, please, think. Do not give me these agonising four days. Story, Anti, Friend. There is no dignity in this. Please, please listen.

Is it okay... To touch you? To hold you while you sleep, to give you silent comfort that my words cannot accurately express? Eyes closed, ears open - I know you are there. You shake, tremble, twitch. I wonder what it is you see to disturb your peace so. Would that my touch would smooth the creases in your brow lighten your breath Would that I could  I would e rase your worries, your fears all that which keeps you up at night. ...may I?

THIS WEEK: - finish video editing for TV package and one-on-one interview - transcribe full script for TV package and reader intro for one-on-one NEXT WEEK: - presentation for PA & Comns - get started on PA & Comns essay (public policy analysis, 2500 words!) - get started on Intl Media Studies essay (2500 words!) - media conference for Advanced PR - social media presentation for Advanced PR

A little reminder to myself because I know I'm not the smartest student in class, and when someone asks me something I freeze up because I don't know how to answer the question, and that looks awkward for everyone (such as when I can't help a fellow student with their presentation because I couldn't for the life of me think of how to answer the question and it was so embarrassing) . Note to self, darling: It's okay not to know. It's okay not to be the smartest, it's okay and it's nothing to be embarrassed about. Better the fool for five minutes than the fool forever, remember how you used to tell yourself that. Remember how sometimes you just need to fake it till you make it, and remind yourself you're going to get there eventually, wherever "there" may be.