For we must all learn to howl.

Now that you're gone... the school seems quieter no longer filled with your presence. Now that you're gone... my days are duller no longer brightened by the spark of seeing you. Now that you're gone... my heart seems colder no longer warmed by your ever-cheerful smile. Now that you're gone... the day seems longer for you are not here to make the time fly past. Now that you're gone... I realise how much I miss you. And soon... I will be gone too. And I will never see you again.

I saw some ex-students of the school today, and one of them was Edward's best friend! OMG!! Naturally, I thought that he just might be there too, but no such luck. Sigh, for a moment there I was hoping so badly to be able to see Edward again, but it turns out that I may not even see him anymore :( Oh well.................. Well the mock chinese oral today was horrible. Terrible. BOO. The reading aloud was alright for the first few minutes, then became a total nightmare as I got increasingly tongue-tied. There I was, stumbling over the words as I tried to look confident and read as naturally as possible {which is really tough when you're shaking like a leaf inside}, and the teachers weren't even looking at me!! :( Obviously, I took it as a bad sign, and I guess it kind of made things even worse :( The conversation topic was totally unexpected: It was about plastic surgery . In english, this is no problem for me {even though my english isn't as good as others think}, but...

Sigh............... I do not believe it, the June Holidays are very nearly over. Yay because this means that my birthday's coming up {whee!} and boo because ending of school holidays = reopening of school = one very sad Nat. ): Yes, the holidays don't officially end till next week, but for us it ends TODAY, because we have extra classes. Oh, man... ):

A few days back, I went back to school for Drama practice. I know, I know, we've already stepped down from the club, so we should be focussing on our studies and all, but then again we miss the club so darn much, and we'd heard that our juniors were in trouble due to bad attitudes, so we wanted to go back to help them out. So most of the seniors {me included} decided to meet up and go to the Drama session together, and I'm so glad we did! I admit feeling apprehensive at first. How would the juniors react to us suddenly coming back? Would they feel that we were there to steal the limelight from them, or just there to give them a 'scolding session'? Thank goodness though, the moment I saw the other juniors {I'd arrived earlier than the other seniors} all my fears and worries were erased. The juniors seemed so happy to see us, and said they'd missed us. Heck, I'd missed them too, especially the ones I felt extremely close to. Even though we seniors had pla...

Well, we've gotten our list of grades back.......... I don't really wanna list them down, except for saying that the L1R5 is 21...... :( Sigh, at least it wasn't as horrible as I had half-expected it to be, but still... I can't help but beat myself up about this, because I could have, should have, done a lot better. Good news and bad news : At least I wasn't shortlisted for Camp Phoenix (think of it as remedial camp), but then again I suspect it was only because I managed to get a decent grade for English :( Oh well, no more moaning, I'll have to start working extremely hard! If Edward could do it, so can I!! Gambatte!!