For we must all learn to howl.

THAT'S IT. I GIVE UP ON PHOTOSHOP.

Have you ever wanted to be accepted so badly that it felt like a physical pang? Have you ever longed to be part of the crowd that shunned you, that made you feel like you weren't worth anything? I know I have. I'm sadistic/masochistic, I know. Here's what's going on - I want to be part of the group that's currently ignoring me for unknown reasons. I swear I've done nothing to offend anyone. I don't know, maybe they just decided that they don't like my face. Or maybe I'm just annoying on a subconscious level.

I officially give up. I will never be popular enough, American enough, pretty enough, rich enough, updated enough. Never enough for you. And so I will always be ignored, forgotten, tossed aside like some rag doll. FUCK YOU. ALL OF YOU.

Damn, what do you do when you're bored? You become like me - 'breaking' into the school's maclab early before EssGra (Essential Graphics, good god T.T) class and using safari to blog.

Yes, Mr S*****, I'm talking to YOU. You, who gave us that crappy Journalism assignment. You, who through said assignment forced us to spend THREE HOURS navigating the Tampines Industrial area. THREE HOURS. Three hours in the hot sun, searching for some dumb 'newsy' story that you CLAIMED was 'easy to find'. "It's everywhere !" you said. EVERYWHERE MY SWEET A**. We walked past some temples because we weren't close enough to the area you said we should go to, but there was NOTHING. And we got stopped by policemen who thought we were tourists who got lost. Imagine their surprise when we said we were local students... After spending THREE HOURS of finding absolutely nothing, we headed back to the temple. After THREE HOURS of endless searching for some nonexistent story. And just for YOU. Yes, we got something. It's not much, but at least we have something to show for our torturous experiences. And it's all because of YOU. If you say that you we...

Hey Xinyi, this is a reply to your tag (see below tagboard) when you asked about Swenson's? My answer is yes, why not? After all, I did say any place, flavour or price. :)

There are times when I truly despise myself. This is one of them. I saw 'Jacob' yesterday, when I was downstairs with my dad, and got a little worried for him when I saw he was sitting outside the clinic. I mean, when you're sitting outside the clinic, doesn't it usually mean that you're unwell, hence visiting the clinic? I guess I wanted to say hi to him. But his face was averted from mine, and he didn't appear to see me, so my courage failed me. I don't know, maybe he really didn't see me. Or maybe he saw me, but turned away so he could avoid me by pretending not to see me. Either way, I just walked past him... But what could I possibly have hoped to accomplish? If our eyes had met, he would most probably have mumbled a 'hi', and I would have smiled and said hello, feeling awkward all the while. How did things come to this? How did everything become so painful? And why ?? Why did he have to come into my life two years ago? Two years ago... I ...