March Holiday rantings

Yay and darn ; the March Holidays are here. Yay because we get a one-week 'break' ; Darn because we're positively drowning in an ocean of homework, assignments and online quizzes. And we still have Drama practice. I'm not really complaining, but then again, time management has never really been my strongest point, so.....

Right. Well, I'm gonna have to get my brain cells working a lot harder especially on my math and chemistry :( No more failing for me!! And I need to work a thousand times harder on my English, especially if I want to get that A1 at the end of the year.

My mom will be out of the country too, so it looks like I'm stuck with a certain someone for the holidays T.T I'll have to try my best to stay out his way, then, though I'll mostly be praying that he won't be in a bad mood, or else he might blow up at me for the smallest of reasons. Although I do have to say, I'm quite numb to it by now. No more tears.

I wonder, what will my other friends be doing? How will they be spending their one-week holiday? Haha, I'll have to resist texting them during the entire holiday - I might just annoy them to death! XP

So there'll be Drama Practice on Tuesday and Wednesday, 2-6pm........ I'm not sure, should I go? It's considered optional practice for the Sec4s, so... I want to go because it's been too long since any Sec4s actually went for Drama. This is because Tuesday sessions are compulsory for the Sec4s, but we've missed so many sessions due to our trainer's absence :( So, I want to go because I feel guilty for missing out on so much, and because I'd really like to bond with our Sec1s. Call me oversensitive or whatever, but it feels as though there's a huge gap between us Sec4s and the other NASDC members now :(

However, I don't want to go because of the juniors as well. THEY HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO RESPECT FOR US, and I mean it. They always seem to think that they know everything, and when we try to help them sometimes, they just try to funny, which really frustrates us. Take this Sec1 guy for example. {I'm not gonna name him.} He is very enthusiastic/hyper, which is good, but the thing is that he thinks he's the best, which is bad. For example, everytime our trainer talks, and if her back is turned to him, he immediately starts imitating her behind her back, thinking that its funny even though it's NOT. And when he goes onstage, he doesn't act as his character. He acts as himself. Urrgh.

So I'm just wondering, to go or not to go??????? :(

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