Half-Dead Reflections (WARNING: LONG POST)
NEWSFLASH: I am still half-dead. Blame it on the fact that I just can't seem to doze off till past midnight, and even then it takes me another 45 minutes to be completely comatose. Blame it on the fact that I am still addicted to fanfic {I know, I'm incorrigible} and that I keep daydreaming about how I'd put my favourite characters into various situations and have them all falling in love with one another. LOL. Like I said, I'm incorrigible. And I love it! :)
Anyway, I think I've passed the stage of being a half-zombie. So congrats to me, I'm fully zombie-fied at this point in time. It's like my body's on autopilot while my mind's somewhere else, like Hokkaido or something. {Ooh that would be nice XD} Then I could go stay by the mountains forever....... {I'm drifting again -.-"}
Oh, I've been reading Xinyi's blog lately during my lunch breaks, and I'm really quite interested in what she says about her JC. (FYI, if you wanna know her blog address, don't ask me becuase I will NOT leak it out without her permission. That's rude. Be polite and ask her yourself instead.) I've been wondering, what will my school's orientation be like? What CCA should I choose? I'm so, so excited! :)
{By the way, all my appeals got rejected, so I'm officially going to NYP, which is perfectly fine with me. If anyone has a problem with that, spit it the hell out and don't even bother trying to make 'subtle' comments about how bad my school is. I will obviously see through the 'subtlety' and tear whichever person's head off.}
Back to subject, I've been thinking of taking up two CCAs, but I'm not telling which two I have in mind! That will have to wait till I can confirm my choices.
Moving on! I've just realised that I seem to be wearing more casual clothes to work. This is a major fashion faux pas, especially when you're supposed to be wearing smart casual. Oops. But to me, wearing a killer black hoodie with jeans is smart enough, even if my colleagues don't seem to think so. Sigh. I'm only sixteen, people! I'm dressing for the streets, not the damn office... I mean, there are only so few smart casual clothes that I can wear or own, and there is no way in hell that I'll willingly wear a freaking dress to the office. The guys really have it easy - They just need pants, a buttoned shirt and a tie. Viola! {To be completely random, I think guys who wear straight ties are supersexy. Meow~Purr!} I'd wear a skirt, but all the skirts I own are rather short -.- If any kind souls have good ideas, I'll gladly take them. Muchos gracias!
Oh, I almost confessed to 'Edward'! Why, you ask? Why, after so long? The answer's simple - It's been too long. And I have to move on sometime... By confessing to him, I might just be able to do that. I have this pact with a close friend of mine - When she confesses, so do I, and (hopefully) vice versa. Meaning that we'll confess to our 'guys' at the same time, and then at least we'll be able to comfort each other after rejection with copious amounts of ice-cream. A few days ago, this friend decided to gather her courage and just do it, so I told her to go for it, and we started planning. The problem was that we didn't have her crush's number, which was completely vital for her plan to work. She managed to get it, but something cropped up in the end, so she lost her nerve and so did I. Until next time, then...
I really don't know how I should confess to 'Edward' though... My original plan was to write a (completely honest) confession letter to him, since writing is my strongest point. However, I've been thinking that no matter how much it hurts, I need to see his face and body language when I finally do it, to get a slightly clearer picture of how he'll take it. But I'm so torn! I want to see his expression, but I'm afraid to. What if what I see completely crushes me? No words I write (type??) at this point can possibly convey just how confused I am.
:(
But no matter what, if I do it, no, when I do it, I need to be able to look him in the eye and stammer it out. And somehow show him that I'll never let our friendship get affected when he says those damning words.
Anyway, I think I've passed the stage of being a half-zombie. So congrats to me, I'm fully zombie-fied at this point in time. It's like my body's on autopilot while my mind's somewhere else, like Hokkaido or something. {Ooh that would be nice XD} Then I could go stay by the mountains forever....... {I'm drifting again -.-"}
Oh, I've been reading Xinyi's blog lately during my lunch breaks, and I'm really quite interested in what she says about her JC. (FYI, if you wanna know her blog address, don't ask me becuase I will NOT leak it out without her permission. That's rude. Be polite and ask her yourself instead.) I've been wondering, what will my school's orientation be like? What CCA should I choose? I'm so, so excited! :)
{By the way, all my appeals got rejected, so I'm officially going to NYP, which is perfectly fine with me. If anyone has a problem with that, spit it the hell out and don't even bother trying to make 'subtle' comments about how bad my school is. I will obviously see through the 'subtlety' and tear whichever person's head off.}
Back to subject, I've been thinking of taking up two CCAs, but I'm not telling which two I have in mind! That will have to wait till I can confirm my choices.
Moving on! I've just realised that I seem to be wearing more casual clothes to work. This is a major fashion faux pas, especially when you're supposed to be wearing smart casual. Oops. But to me, wearing a killer black hoodie with jeans is smart enough, even if my colleagues don't seem to think so. Sigh. I'm only sixteen, people! I'm dressing for the streets, not the damn office... I mean, there are only so few smart casual clothes that I can wear or own, and there is no way in hell that I'll willingly wear a freaking dress to the office. The guys really have it easy - They just need pants, a buttoned shirt and a tie. Viola! {To be completely random, I think guys who wear straight ties are supersexy. Meow~Purr!
Oh, I almost confessed to 'Edward'! Why, you ask? Why, after so long? The answer's simple - It's been too long. And I have to move on sometime... By confessing to him, I might just be able to do that. I have this pact with a close friend of mine - When she confesses, so do I, and (hopefully) vice versa. Meaning that we'll confess to our 'guys' at the same time, and then at least we'll be able to comfort each other after rejection with copious amounts of ice-cream. A few days ago, this friend decided to gather her courage and just do it, so I told her to go for it, and we started planning. The problem was that we didn't have her crush's number, which was completely vital for her plan to work. She managed to get it, but something cropped up in the end, so she lost her nerve and so did I. Until next time, then...
I really don't know how I should confess to 'Edward' though... My original plan was to write a (completely honest) confession letter to him, since writing is my strongest point. However, I've been thinking that no matter how much it hurts, I need to see his face and body language when I finally do it, to get a slightly clearer picture of how he'll take it. But I'm so torn! I want to see his expression, but I'm afraid to. What if what I see completely crushes me? No words I write (type??) at this point can possibly convey just how confused I am.
:(
But no matter what, if I do it, no, when I do it, I need to be able to look him in the eye and stammer it out. And somehow show him that I'll never let our friendship get affected when he says those damning words.
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