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How best to put this, I wonder... If anything at all, this is just one of those random posts that I write and share with no explanation other than the confession that it's been on my mind an awful lot the past few days and I needed to scribble this down somewhere so I could stop mulling it over again and again.
You know how people always ask you what you look for in a significant other? I used to come up with a long list of qualities and characters traits I thought I wanted to find when I was younger, and it always used to paint an all-in-all perfect picture of what I thought was my "ideal" person.
It's funny how your answers always change as you grow up - not unexpected, but also refreshingly surprising when you compare what you say now to what you would have said back then.
I'd stopped thinking about that question until a year ago, when I dated this one guy. Granted, it was only one date and we broke things off after that, but we did have rather interesting conversation - naturally, one of the things that came up in our conversations was what we were looking for in a significant other.
I didn't think much of that question after that, but then it popped up again when I was chatting with a friend yesterday. What is with this question, anyway?
But I spent the night thinking about it again, and quite honestly I'm pretty glad to say my answer isn't any different from the one I gave to that guy a year ago.
What I'm looking for in a significant other?
Who knows? I no longer have a list that's a page and half long, listing every character trait I deem remotely important in searching for someone else. What I do have, though, is the thought that right now I think I'm just looking for someone to be there, to exchange stories with. I've been through a lot, and I'm beyond sure that you have too - it's life after all, and it's not fun if it isn't a fuckfest of sorts.
I'd say that I'm looking for someone who knows that I taught myself to be as strong as possible for myself, and wouldn't want me to be over-dependent on him. I'd say that I'm not looking for someone who wants to "save" or "fix" me, but someone who can help me up when I fall and stand back to watch me fix myself.
I suppose I should say that I'm not exactly looking for anyone, if that makes things a little clearer - I'm a little too busy living my life and trying to be there for as much of it as possible.
However, if we happen to stumble into each other, and if you're willing to, I'd be very happy to continue living my life, with the only (and possibly biggest) difference being that hey, you're in it too. I can stand perfectly fine on my own, but I'd want to be able to say that having such a person in my life makes things better for both parties, if that makes sense.
All this is kind of like a big fat mental note to myself so I don't forget - I still can't bring myself to say it out loud because holy hell, it's kind of sappy.
>////<"
You know how people always ask you what you look for in a significant other? I used to come up with a long list of qualities and characters traits I thought I wanted to find when I was younger, and it always used to paint an all-in-all perfect picture of what I thought was my "ideal" person.
It's funny how your answers always change as you grow up - not unexpected, but also refreshingly surprising when you compare what you say now to what you would have said back then.
I'd stopped thinking about that question until a year ago, when I dated this one guy. Granted, it was only one date and we broke things off after that, but we did have rather interesting conversation - naturally, one of the things that came up in our conversations was what we were looking for in a significant other.
I didn't think much of that question after that, but then it popped up again when I was chatting with a friend yesterday. What is with this question, anyway?
But I spent the night thinking about it again, and quite honestly I'm pretty glad to say my answer isn't any different from the one I gave to that guy a year ago.
What I'm looking for in a significant other?
Who knows? I no longer have a list that's a page and half long, listing every character trait I deem remotely important in searching for someone else. What I do have, though, is the thought that right now I think I'm just looking for someone to be there, to exchange stories with. I've been through a lot, and I'm beyond sure that you have too - it's life after all, and it's not fun if it isn't a fuckfest of sorts.
I'd say that I'm looking for someone who knows that I taught myself to be as strong as possible for myself, and wouldn't want me to be over-dependent on him. I'd say that I'm not looking for someone who wants to "save" or "fix" me, but someone who can help me up when I fall and stand back to watch me fix myself.
I think this explains it better than I could.
I suppose I should say that I'm not exactly looking for anyone, if that makes things a little clearer - I'm a little too busy living my life and trying to be there for as much of it as possible.
However, if we happen to stumble into each other, and if you're willing to, I'd be very happy to continue living my life, with the only (and possibly biggest) difference being that hey, you're in it too. I can stand perfectly fine on my own, but I'd want to be able to say that having such a person in my life makes things better for both parties, if that makes sense.
All this is kind of like a big fat mental note to myself so I don't forget - I still can't bring myself to say it out loud because holy hell, it's kind of sappy.
>////<"
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