Of Birthdays, Letters and Guys
Okay, I haven’t been up for quite some time now, and I apologise. I’ve been bogged down with homework, tests, projects and guy problems. So what else is new, right? :)
Oh, I’ve just turned seventeen! ^.^ Yay me! So, I’m now seventeen, three cheers and all that. Now I’m officially a young-woman-in-waiting. Just one more year to go! Hmm, my birthday was kind of embarrassing, I guess… I’d been dragged to Malaysia (against my will, I might add) and so I celebrated there, with a ginormous cake, much singing of the birthday song, and with a whole group of complete strangers. Fun, huh. I usually prefer my birthday to be a low-key affair (unless I’m with my closest friends, then that’s another story XD), but my aunt, being the very eager beaver that she is, went to town with the whole thing, very conveniently forgetting how emotionally scarring a birthday can be for a teenage girl. If I’m with my sistahs, then HELL YEAH I love a good celebration, but with strangers, and middle-aged strangers at that, well… Not so much. :/ But anyway, to quote Xinyi (I hope you don’t mind, sweetie!), “I’m 17 YAY. Be jealous.” WHEEHOO!!! :D
Oh, and it was disappointingly ironic that I didn’t get a single card or letter, but I received 19 texts and 49 emails wishing me a happy birthday. I kid you not, people. I’m not blaming anyone, I swear, it wasn’t as if I’d expected to receive anything, but seriously? The universe has a very dark sense of humor. That’s it, I’m going to write a letter to myself.
Now for an announcement – any readers (I do have some readers, right? …Right?) please take note that this blog is still up and running. Yessiree, this blog hasn’t reached its use-by date yet! But posts might just take forever to come in, because I hardly get the time to get my butt online and blog. Mini updates that I sneak in from TP’s Reuters Lab or Mac Lab maybe, but lengthy posts might take a little longer. So please bear with me, okay? :) Plus, I can’t figure out how to blog with an iPhone. Is it possible? Any advice? Anyway. If I ever decide to shut this blog down (let’s hope the day never comes), I will announce it with BIG RED LETTERS, so don’t you worry, okay?
Hmm, what’s next? Oh yes, guy problems. I kind of like this guy, who isn’t Chinese (gasp!!), but it shouldn’t be a big deal, right? I mean, we’re living in the 21st century, so I hardly think that there’s a need to make a fuss over things like these. ^.^ Well, I think I may actually have a chance this time! As in, for the first time ever! I seriously doubt that any guys have ever liked me that way before, but I may have a chance! :D But there’s a guy who keeps hanging with me, and the guy I kind of like (let’s call him ‘Alex’ for now, it’s a nice name anyways) doesn’t like this other guy who keeps hanging around me (let’s call this guy ‘James’ for now - another nice name!) so if ‘Alex’ doesn’t like ‘James’, and I kind of like ‘Alex’ but am friends with both, what do I do?? As in, the last time I got worried about ‘James’ because he was shivering during Drama practice, and felt his forehead to check if he had a fever (he didn’t, but I was still worried), ‘Alex’ started acting weird. If I were talking about someone else, I’d say it was jealousy, but I’m not too sure, since this is me we're talking about. :/ Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
By the way, if anyone’s interested/curious about the previous ‘Edward’/’Jacob’ problems I had back then (see older posts for reference), here’s the summary: ‘Edward’ and I are not in the same school, what with me graduating last year and him the year before. He’s in MJC now, and I’m in TP. I never did confess though. Wanted to, but didn’t. So I think he still doesn’t know how I feel/felt/gaaaaaaaaaah about him. He may suspect, but I doubt he’ll think anything is out of the ordinary. We still keep in touch. Kind of. I mean, it should technically count if I randomly text him during special occasions like Valentine’s Day/his birthday/Chinese New Year/Christmas right? :)
And as for ‘Jacob’? Well, he broke my heart. When I thought I could count on him to be there for me, he pretty much abandoned me and left me to die.But I’m okay now, after much crying and a heart-to-heart with a sistah (thanks Xinyi!), and I think I’ll be okay if I see him in school. We’re both in TP, you know. Like I said earlier, the universe has a very dark sense of humor. Anyway, he strengthened my belief that I cannot have a bestie, regardless of guy or girl. Because then my jinx will take effect.
In TP, I guess I’ve made loads of new friends, and found that no matter where we go, it is truly the friends we made in secondary school that we miss the most. It hurts when we can’t meet up due to clashing schedules, and the best way to keep in touch is through a letter, a card, a text, an email, or maybe a random call, providing that the other party is free to take that call. Most of the time, we’re so busy with our current lives, working hard to find that elusive balance we need, pushing ourselves to reach that academic grade we want or need. What can I say? Ganbarimashou, everyone, and let’s all keep in touch. I have no idea why I’m feeling so sentimental all of a sudden, hahaha! ^.^
Let’s see if I can draft up a short poem to end off, shall I? Here goes! :D
Oh, I’ve just turned seventeen! ^.^ Yay me! So, I’m now seventeen, three cheers and all that. Now I’m officially a young-woman-in-waiting. Just one more year to go! Hmm, my birthday was kind of embarrassing, I guess… I’d been dragged to Malaysia (against my will, I might add) and so I celebrated there, with a ginormous cake, much singing of the birthday song, and with a whole group of complete strangers. Fun, huh. I usually prefer my birthday to be a low-key affair (unless I’m with my closest friends, then that’s another story XD), but my aunt, being the very eager beaver that she is, went to town with the whole thing, very conveniently forgetting how emotionally scarring a birthday can be for a teenage girl. If I’m with my sistahs, then HELL YEAH I love a good celebration, but with strangers, and middle-aged strangers at that, well… Not so much. :/ But anyway, to quote Xinyi (I hope you don’t mind, sweetie!), “I’m 17 YAY. Be jealous.” WHEEHOO!!! :D
Oh, and it was disappointingly ironic that I didn’t get a single card or letter, but I received 19 texts and 49 emails wishing me a happy birthday. I kid you not, people. I’m not blaming anyone, I swear, it wasn’t as if I’d expected to receive anything, but seriously? The universe has a very dark sense of humor. That’s it, I’m going to write a letter to myself.
Now for an announcement – any readers (I do have some readers, right? …Right?) please take note that this blog is still up and running. Yessiree, this blog hasn’t reached its use-by date yet! But posts might just take forever to come in, because I hardly get the time to get my butt online and blog. Mini updates that I sneak in from TP’s Reuters Lab or Mac Lab maybe, but lengthy posts might take a little longer. So please bear with me, okay? :) Plus, I can’t figure out how to blog with an iPhone. Is it possible? Any advice? Anyway. If I ever decide to shut this blog down (let’s hope the day never comes), I will announce it with BIG RED LETTERS, so don’t you worry, okay?
Hmm, what’s next? Oh yes, guy problems. I kind of like this guy, who isn’t Chinese (gasp!!), but it shouldn’t be a big deal, right? I mean, we’re living in the 21st century, so I hardly think that there’s a need to make a fuss over things like these. ^.^ Well, I think I may actually have a chance this time! As in, for the first time ever! I seriously doubt that any guys have ever liked me that way before, but I may have a chance! :D But there’s a guy who keeps hanging with me, and the guy I kind of like (let’s call him ‘Alex’ for now, it’s a nice name anyways) doesn’t like this other guy who keeps hanging around me (let’s call this guy ‘James’ for now - another nice name!) so if ‘Alex’ doesn’t like ‘James’, and I kind of like ‘Alex’ but am friends with both, what do I do?? As in, the last time I got worried about ‘James’ because he was shivering during Drama practice, and felt his forehead to check if he had a fever (he didn’t, but I was still worried), ‘Alex’ started acting weird. If I were talking about someone else, I’d say it was jealousy, but I’m not too sure, since this is me we're talking about. :/ Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
By the way, if anyone’s interested/curious about the previous ‘Edward’/’Jacob’ problems I had back then (see older posts for reference), here’s the summary: ‘Edward’ and I are not in the same school, what with me graduating last year and him the year before. He’s in MJC now, and I’m in TP. I never did confess though. Wanted to, but didn’t. So I think he still doesn’t know how I feel/felt/gaaaaaaaaaah about him. He may suspect, but I doubt he’ll think anything is out of the ordinary. We still keep in touch. Kind of. I mean, it should technically count if I randomly text him during special occasions like Valentine’s Day/his birthday/Chinese New Year/Christmas right? :)
And as for ‘Jacob’? Well, he broke my heart. When I thought I could count on him to be there for me, he pretty much abandoned me and left me to die.
In TP, I guess I’ve made loads of new friends, and found that no matter where we go, it is truly the friends we made in secondary school that we miss the most. It hurts when we can’t meet up due to clashing schedules, and the best way to keep in touch is through a letter, a card, a text, an email, or maybe a random call, providing that the other party is free to take that call. Most of the time, we’re so busy with our current lives, working hard to find that elusive balance we need, pushing ourselves to reach that academic grade we want or need. What can I say? Ganbarimashou, everyone, and let’s all keep in touch. I have no idea why I’m feeling so sentimental all of a sudden, hahaha! ^.^
Let’s see if I can draft up a short poem to end off, shall I? Here goes! :D
As the first leaves start to emerge
and the flowers start to bloom
as the snow of Winter starts to melt
I’ll be thinking of you.
As the birds take to the skies
in the sweltering Summer heat
as the day draws to a close
I’ll be missing you.
As the rowanoak slowly ages
and the birch leaves turn yellow with time
as the chestnuts turn from green to brown
I’ll be writing to you.
As the animals scurry away
into the warmth of their burrows
as the cold of Winter sets into our bones
You’ll be writing back.
and the flowers start to bloom
as the snow of Winter starts to melt
I’ll be thinking of you.
As the birds take to the skies
in the sweltering Summer heat
as the day draws to a close
I’ll be missing you.
As the rowanoak slowly ages
and the birch leaves turn yellow with time
as the chestnuts turn from green to brown
I’ll be writing to you.
As the animals scurry away
into the warmth of their burrows
as the cold of Winter sets into our bones
You’ll be writing back.
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