D-Day

Today's the day when we perform TWCT.
Those Who Can't, Teach.
(That's for those of you who don't know what TWCT is supposed to stand for)

What can I say?
I'm nervous.
Nervous because it's my first time as the lead role.
Nervous because the thought of failure is still in my mind. We've practiced so hard and gone through so much, too.

We've laughed, cried, swore the bitterest of curses and asked one another exactly what we were supposed to achieve as our characters.

All our hours of practice, all the days we spent sitting around discussing blocking and costumes and the idea of whether we should use props or not...
It all boils down to tonight.

I didn't sleep well last night.
My dreams were filled with leering faces and writhing shadows full of twisted intent.
I was running from something, hiding in fear that whatever it was would find me.
All my supposed friends became people I didn't recognize. They all changed, and I found myself in a hostile place, with hostile people.

Needless to say, I wasn't too happy about my dream.
And I could barely stomach my breakfast. I threw about three-quarters of my precious honey water down the sink (something I'm going to regret later on in the day, I'm sure) and now I'm heading to school for practice.
It's going to be run after run after run, and this time, THIS TIME, I'm determined to get my stupid costume change down. This time, it's going to go smoothly and flawlessly.

Break a leg, everyone.

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