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Where was this when I needed it fresh
Because it all feels like it’s going bad again

Or is it just because I’m sick and my head’s
spinning so fast I can’t keep up
body burning up and all I want
is you here to tell me
to care

shhh it’s ok

maybe it’s the voices in my hea-
wait no they’ve been here all the while
let them through, they’re family.
I think they comfort her.

maybe it’s because it’s a Monday and you’re probably still at the office
 (God, do you never leave on time?)
maybe joking around with your colleagues because they’re all nice
people like you

Why does it feel like you don’t exist any more
why does it feel like I’m starting to forget
beautiful, yes. beautiful, what?
What was that?
I forget. I remember. I forget.

it sounds to my ears when I say it like you’re dead
maybe you’re dead to me
are we dead to each other?

is this how it feels when someone walks out of your life?
like they simply cease to exist in your world
yet here you are and there they are
spinning in their own world too

I guess that’s when you realise you don’t exist there either.

“Texts you don’t send at 2:07am when someone breaks your heart.”
It’s funny.

They look exactly like mine.



I'm okay, honest I am. I just needed to get this out of my head because I've been sniffling and feverish and dizzy since yesterday, and it really isn't helping that I can't even focus on my research notes for my presentation this Friday because my eyes keep glazing over and I can't see through the fog in my head, it's so heavy. Sick and miserable and stressed.

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