Empty

Because when you haven't seen someone for that long, you forget how to feel.

I saw you yesterday.

For half a moment, my heart actually stuttered and stopped.

Even after four years, you haven’t changed

at all.

I’ll be honest –

I hadn’t actually noticed you until

you called out my name

and that was when I froze.

You’d sounded slightly surprised, maybe even

shocked

to see me.

Why is that?

Could it be because the 14-year-old you remembered

is older now?

Finally a girl of eighteen?

Perhaps you didn’t think it was me.

I didn’t expect to see you.

Maybe I was actually hoping that I wouldn’t see you.

After all, what were you doing in the area?

You don’t live here.

Even seeing you, exchanging a few words…

You asked for my number,

because you had lost it (your phone had gone insane again).

I’ve never lost your number.

In all truth,

I don’t know what I feel about you anymore.

I think I was too shocked to actually see you,

hear your voice,

To fully register anything.

Four years.

I’ve seen things, done things, I never thought I would.

I’ve met new people, people who actually mean that much to me.

And you weren’t here.

Tell me, how should I feel?