OT5


No one has anything to do in the office so I'm watching YouTube videos on my phone (this laptop can't play music or videos for shit).
Felt like re-listening to old DBSK songs so I pulled up a fan playlist and...
This video came up.

I can never call myself a huge fan of DBSK, but they were and always will be the only kpop group I fully support. They were the only ones I cared about enough to search for live videos, compare performances and talk to other fans, read up on and try to understand their history. 

Perhaps I was so accepting of them and their music because they sang Japanese as well as Korean songs (the main reason why I'm not a supporter of Kpop groups is because I don't feel comfortable with Korean - I've never been as comfortable with it as I've always been with Japanese), and was a lot easier to accept that they weren't a Korean-songs-only group. Their music was a huge factor too - I loved the varying styles of their music and how they always made me feel like there was so much more to the life I was living. Maybe it's just how Japanese music makes me feel, though.

And the truth is that if they hadn't split, the chances of me being a Kpop fan would have been immensely high - it's strange to imagine that my fate changed with a roll of the dice - I could be screaming over EXO and SNSD instead of anime.

I teared up, and I wanted to cry so badly when I was watching this video - I'd never watched it before, but it affected me pretty badly because of how emotional they all were went singing it. I think it was their last performance together (or at least that's what I see most comments say), and it showed - several times they were crying so hard that they couldn't sing. Even the crowd didn't seem as lively as it always did in during their other performances, and I can't imagine how badly everyone must have been crying.

The sheer magnitude of their split must have hit the boys when they were standing onstage like that - it looks like they only just realised how affected everyone was, how much they were going to be leaving behind. It's just me, but maybe it was in that moment that they regretted having to go.

Most fans are still hoping that we'll see a reunion sometime in the future, but I highly doubt so - we may hope, and there might indeed be a reunion of some sort in the future, but that future isn't going to come for many years.

Like I said, I can't call myself a huge fan of pre-split DBSK - I can't tell you everything about them nor can I say that I know every song, every interview - but I can say that they were my OT5 before anything else, before anime even, and maybe you'll understand what I mean by that.

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