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I'm still shaking - partly due to fear, partly due to anger.

You never joke about something like this, do you understand?
NEVER.


I'm usually ignored in the family, so I don't usually particularly care, but this was a whole different issue because this was about my dad's health, and even though he's an asshole it's not really as if I want to see him kick the bucket. So no one was telling me anything, and I was growing from apathetic to scared because what was going on, and it was only after I called my mum that she told me it was a joke, relax.

I can't even begin to describe how wrong this was and on how many levels exactly because this was so WRONG. Who gave a shit that I was freaked out enough that I started crying, right? Because I very obviously didn't care? Because who gave a damn that for all I knew he could be having anything from a mild concussion to something that could grow to be a problem in the future? And who ever gave a damn that I was stressed enough due to other things, and who gave a flying fuck that I had a breakdown not too long ago and definitely didn't need this?

But what makes me so angry is that how difficult was it supposed to be to just tell me that nothing was wrong, don't worry?
How fun it is to watch me freaking out and panicking because haha it's just a joke, right?

Because hey, it's just a goddamn joke, take it easy, right?
Because hey, it's Nat, it's not as if she cares about stuff like this, right?
Because she's fine all the time.
Because she never breaks down.
Because she doesn't c

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