Overdue Apology
Alright, I said some mean things in my last post, didn't I? Well, I apologise. I was in a snarky mood when I'd posted it.
A few things to note. I know what I said about the people talking during the lectures. And I want to make this clear: I WAS NOT EAVESDROPPING. The people really were talking loud enough that I couldn't not hear them. And believe me, I was doing my best to concentrate on the lecturer. I have also never said that I don't talk during lectures. I do, especially when I get bored. As students, we all get bored during lectures and tutorials. If you don't, I take my hat off to you (no sarcasm here). Really, I admire those students who can give a hundred percent during lectures, because there has been many a time that I have found myself dozing off. So please understand that I have never said that I don't talk during lectures. There is nothing wrong with people talking during lectures/classes/tutorials/whatever. It's just that when they get too loud, I get irritated. Don't tell me you have never gotten irritated with people who don't concentrate on the lesson and end up disturbing others. If you really never get annoyed with these people, again I salute you.
Also, I realise that I was pretty harsh on what I said about 'Egg' and 'Jam', two of my groupmates for MMP. Again, I apologise. I'm not the most popular person, especially in my class, and I know full well that I am one of the 'leftovers' I talked about in my previous post. Yes, I am not blind. I do not claim to be popular or well-liked. I know that my classmates hate me, and I have tried to change some of my bad habits. However, they still hate me, and everyday that I go to school I dread seeing them.
Do you know what it's like to be hated by your entire class save for two? Do you know what it's like to be talked about behind your back, and gawked at when you come to school looking a little different, and having no one wanting to sit beside you, like you're the carrier for some disgusting, incurable disease? Do you know what it's like to be faced with awkward silences every time you try to be friendly and say hello to your classmates? Do you know how it feels like to have your classmates saying hello to your friend and acting like you've never existed? I do. It's not pleasant. There have been many, many times I have contemplated suicide, and I honestly tell you that these moments when I just want to end it all, to just die, these moments are not going to fade away any time soon.
But I'm not talking about me at this very moment. I know what it's like to be gossiped about without knowing it, and I now see that I'd done it to two of my groupmates. Sincerely, I really am sorry. I hadn't thought of how they might have felt if they happened to come across my blog and read the post. All I can say is that I'm no saint, I've never claimed to be one, and well, having faced so much hatred and bottling it all up, I had to find some way to let some of my anger out. I'm just sorry that I'd vented it out on my groupmates.
Now another issue I need to address: my tagboard. If you've read the recent tags, you'll have seen that they're not very nice. In fact, they are hurtful, and insulting, and hateful. These attacks on my blog have started since my most recent post, and I will assume (correctly, I hope) that the post was the direct cause of these attacks. I have apologised, and I mean it when I say that I'm sorry for what I posted. So I will ask whoever is attacking my blog to please stop. That's all I'm asking.
Lastly, you need to know that I am pretty snarky and sarcastic by nature. Not everything I say can be accepted at face value, and there are times when you have to take a barrelful of salt with what I say. So please, don't be too sensitive to whatever I say.
A few things to note. I know what I said about the people talking during the lectures. And I want to make this clear: I WAS NOT EAVESDROPPING. The people really were talking loud enough that I couldn't not hear them. And believe me, I was doing my best to concentrate on the lecturer. I have also never said that I don't talk during lectures. I do, especially when I get bored. As students, we all get bored during lectures and tutorials. If you don't, I take my hat off to you (no sarcasm here). Really, I admire those students who can give a hundred percent during lectures, because there has been many a time that I have found myself dozing off. So please understand that I have never said that I don't talk during lectures. There is nothing wrong with people talking during lectures/classes/tutorials/whatever. It's just that when they get too loud, I get irritated. Don't tell me you have never gotten irritated with people who don't concentrate on the lesson and end up disturbing others. If you really never get annoyed with these people, again I salute you.
Also, I realise that I was pretty harsh on what I said about 'Egg' and 'Jam', two of my groupmates for MMP. Again, I apologise. I'm not the most popular person, especially in my class, and I know full well that I am one of the 'leftovers' I talked about in my previous post. Yes, I am not blind. I do not claim to be popular or well-liked. I know that my classmates hate me, and I have tried to change some of my bad habits. However, they still hate me, and everyday that I go to school I dread seeing them.
Do you know what it's like to be hated by your entire class save for two? Do you know what it's like to be talked about behind your back, and gawked at when you come to school looking a little different, and having no one wanting to sit beside you, like you're the carrier for some disgusting, incurable disease? Do you know what it's like to be faced with awkward silences every time you try to be friendly and say hello to your classmates? Do you know how it feels like to have your classmates saying hello to your friend and acting like you've never existed? I do. It's not pleasant. There have been many, many times I have contemplated suicide, and I honestly tell you that these moments when I just want to end it all, to just die, these moments are not going to fade away any time soon.
But I'm not talking about me at this very moment. I know what it's like to be gossiped about without knowing it, and I now see that I'd done it to two of my groupmates. Sincerely, I really am sorry. I hadn't thought of how they might have felt if they happened to come across my blog and read the post. All I can say is that I'm no saint, I've never claimed to be one, and well, having faced so much hatred and bottling it all up, I had to find some way to let some of my anger out. I'm just sorry that I'd vented it out on my groupmates.
Now another issue I need to address: my tagboard. If you've read the recent tags, you'll have seen that they're not very nice. In fact, they are hurtful, and insulting, and hateful. These attacks on my blog have started since my most recent post, and I will assume (correctly, I hope) that the post was the direct cause of these attacks. I have apologised, and I mean it when I say that I'm sorry for what I posted. So I will ask whoever is attacking my blog to please stop. That's all I'm asking.
Lastly, you need to know that I am pretty snarky and sarcastic by nature. Not everything I say can be accepted at face value, and there are times when you have to take a barrelful of salt with what I say. So please, don't be too sensitive to whatever I say.
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