Brief Hiatus

I think I'm going to take a hiatus from anything regarding guys or relationships or liking anyone.

Cute guys - smile, talk, but do not chase. They'll chase you if they want you. Plus you get sent out for enough events that you're already chasing so many people for interviews muahaha.

Relationships - I think friendships and internships are more pressing issues at the moment. 

Dates - I'm dating my internship right now. It's going well, but something makes me feel that we'll only last about 3 months more till we break up. It's sad.

I still like guys, and I still want to know what it's like to feel loved and happy in a relationship, but... I think I'll be shelving those feelings and thoughts for a while. 

I mean, I want to focus on my internship more now. I've been extremely focused on it, and I'm proud of myself for that, so maybe if I can keep up the whole focused thing till September I'll be okay.

And anything and everything regarding guys and love and relationships can take a back seat.

From now, it's going to be work, tumblr, work, friends, work, family, work, me time.

I know I shouldn't use work as a way to run and hide from these thoughts, but fuck it, right? 

Because I should really be thinking about how to finish my two of three feature stories (I finished the first one yesterday, so I just need to write the other two by tomorrow - doable if I focus and put my mind to it) instead of what to say to Jack when he texts.

Focus, Nat. Internship and friends and family come before anything else. Plus don't forget how you've got enough of your own problems that you still can't deal with - you won't be wanting to add any more to your already overflowing plate.

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