The Steel Lover

It's interesting.

Those around you always tell you to be strong,

to pick yourself up when you fall.

But what do you do when no one around you gives you a reason to be strong?

Those around stare with unfriendly eyes

waiting to pick you apart

laugh at the smallest mistake you make

and send you back into your corner, knife in hand.

And then those who should be there... Aren't.

They tell you something's wrong with you.

That you're not "normal".

That you need to be who you're not.

They keep taunting and pushing and pulling

until you're on the floor

how did you get there?

wet eyes

salty streaks

and then they ask you

why, why

why are you crying 

why can't you be strong

why do you have to be so weak

why do you have to be so weird

why can't you be like the others

there's a perfectly nice girl - why can't you be like her

why can't you be NORMAL

And when you break 

you have to make sure that no one's around

because if they saw they would

scream

separate you from your lover

not understand why

but you need that cold caress

that kiss

to keep going

knowing that he's left his loving mark on you

a reminder, sweet souvenir

or perhaps salty instead of sweet

Because you can't be strong anymore.

you don't even know where the mask ends

and you begin

You no longer know how many you wear

or what you really look like anymore.

You tried being strong 

but you kept being pushed down

kicked

until you couldn't take it anymore

too many bruises that no one could see

but enough is enough

what can you do?

you want to introduce your lover

but who can you tell?

no one would believe

no one would accept

so this is why they call it a "secret" then.

some know, some don't

but no one will ever address it

until it's too late.
Understand?