2013-2014


There are literally about one and a half days left till the first of January, 2014.
I dunno what I'm hoping to see in the next year.
One half of me's hoping for good change, new beginnings and all that,
maybe something nice to finally happen.
Another half's whispering that well, it's just going to be another dreary grey year,
with disappointments galore because that's all I'm ever good for.

Whatever happens, I think it'll be good to move on from this year.

2013's been pretty okay I guess - 
I've met new people, made new friends.
Had new experiences (my internship was certainly an eye-opening experience) and done more than I'd ever hoped to do.
(Then again, that could also be because I'm very easily disappointed in myself)
I've seen things about people I considered friends that really made me wonder about things.
I've gotten into sticky situations, and come out of them somewhat-but-not-quite worse for the wear.

Every year I seem to learn the same thing:
Not everyone can be trusted.

But there are some whom you learn you can trust,
no matter how much you fight or squabble or scream.
When things get bad, they've got your back,
no matter how much they yell at you or nag about doing something they don't approve of.

I've learnt that sometimes, you just have to be persistent to get what you need.
And being a pussy about things isn't going to get you anywhere.
So suck it the fuck up and learn to adapt to changes.
It's okay to complain about them, cry even, but make sure you adapt.

Sigh.
2013's been a hell of a year, hasn't it?
As usual, I can never quite tell if the good outweighs the bad or if it's the other way around.
I've made new friends and learned who to stay the fuck away from.
I've joined new fandoms (Free!/SNK - ESPECIALLY SNK) and through them met amazing people.
(I've also realised that I'm a very passionate Ereri/Riren shipper)

My OTP mmm

omg bby
(seriously, no one looks that good drenched in blood ugh)

I've laughed and cried and then some more.

All in all... 2013 has been a not-so-bad-but-pretty-damned-shit year.
Adding everything up - the good and bad, the episodes and days when everything seemed to be okay,
I suppose it wasn't too bad.

But let's hope 2014 is going to be better.
It's going to be a scary year, what with graduation and university. 
There are many questions and worries running through my mind, but I don't feel like putting them up here just yet.
Not until I can make them sound a little less personal for my tastes.

But the one thing 2013 has really taught me?
It's something I knew from a while ago, but didn't actually think would apply.
Sometimes... It may actually be better not to feel anything.
If you don't feel anything, nothing can hurt you.


I suppose I should end this with the usual that's expected of such end-of-year posts.
I hope 2013 has been a good year for you.
If it has, awesome.
If it hasn't, well, there's still 2014 to look forward to.
So I hope that 2014 will be good to you and treat you right!

Happy New Year, everyone! 

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