Japan Day 3

It's been a long day today, and tomorrow's only going to get even more exhausting. 

Long story short (because I'm really exhausted) today was a disappointment because just about all the places we were supposed to visit we're closed either due to weather conditions (in this case the volcanic crater that was closed due to a high amount of volcanic gas emissions today) or because we were too late to visit anymore (in this case the suspension bridge that we wanted to visit but were too late for).

And now we're staying in a hotel that's smack beside the red-light district. It's fascinating and I'd love to walk around the area some more and maybe get some pictures, but my dad's really upset - I think he doesn't like the idea of his daughter being exposed to such "corruption", but then again think of how he'd react if he were to know how much I really know about all this...

Anyway I've got a pissed-off dad to deal with, and things with Aoi-kun are... Falling apart, really. He's going through a bad time because his dog has to be put down, so it's also inconvenient for him to talk, but then again it's not like we've actually been talking all this time. I don't know - I don't want to ask him why he hasn't even talked to me because it's insensitive of me at such a time, but I'm still kind of upset (try disappointed, actually) and maybe... Resigned. Like an I-know-what's-going-to-happen kind of feeling, like an I've-been-here-too-many-times-before kind of feeling. 

Like I said, everything feels like it's just falling apart, and it feels like the only thing  I can do is watch.
Location: Hakata Excel Hotel Tokyu 4-6-7 Nakasu, Hakata Ward, Fukuoka

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