It feels... Different, somehow.

Been talking to the NAS drama peeps lately. They're having their tapestry performance tomorrow night, and I'm going to watch them and also participate in a huge hugging, back-slapping, hey-how-you-been, haven't-seen-you-in-a-gazillion-years session. I have missed them so much...

:')

But talking to them... Feels different now.

Talking to them, I'm reminded that I'm no longer a student of NAS. I've graduated two years ago, and I'm no longer the awkward 16-year-old fashion disaster I used to be.

I'm now an awkward 18-year-old fashion disaster.

But Kami, so much has changed, especially since I entered poly. It feels like I'm a completely different person. I kid you not, if you were to compare the secondary school me to the current me.... I'm different now. Less... Gullible, if you'll put it that way. Still incredibly naive, that's for sure, but not so innocent now.

I dunno, there's no actual way of putting it. Just go and read my earliest blog posts, from 2009. Go on. Even the writing style's different. Like, I've seen more, been exposed to more stuff than I thought I'd be, back in NAS. Back when I was still in that happy safe little bubble that NAS gave us. I'm not like fighting for my survival out here (well not literally at least), but really. I feel like less of a little girl now.

Stupid, isn't it? I've only graduated for two years and the way I talk you'd think I'd have seen the world.
*scoffs*

It just feels like I've grown up, that's all. It's childish to make such a statement, but in my opinion, comparing how I act nowadays to how I used to act in secondary school... I've really actually grown up since then. I've got a lot more growing up to do, though. I'm more mature than I used to be, but I've more maturing to do.

Damn, I feel old.
(And then I laugh, because now I think of how Dy would react if I said that in front of him.
"You feel old? How am I supposed to feel?!"
Sorry, nii-san. Hee.)

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